Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Be strong!!

2 days passed since our official break up.. the news of our break up is spreading really fast.. (hmm...the power of facebook...) my heart felt uncomfortable every time someone asks me about it...and these 2 days is non-stop questioning and me explaining of what happened between us.. it's actually a little hard to explain. It probably came as a shock for everyone and probably no one expected our break up. Everyone thought we'll always be that loving couple..Even i didn't expect it...

But our break up made me realize that i have many families and friends that cares and worries about me. Everyone offering their comforts and care. Offering to be my listener when i need it. I'm really grateful to all of you. Thanks a lot.. I'll always remember that you've offered your hands when i needed it the most and one day, when you need it, mine will be there...

To you:
I'll be strong...I'll be alright...I'll stand back up... and I hope you will too..I know you'll be as lucky as me, to have families and friends offering their hands, their comfort, and with that I know that you'll be able to stand up too..
I think I've heard this from somewhere long ago, 'no one in this world cannot live without a certain someone'.. (not really sure if it's the exact words, correct me if im wrong). Don't know if you'll ever read this, but I hope you know that even after all this I still care and I'll always will.. and will forever remember this important part of my life..and you that's in it..

Sunday, September 28, 2008

It's over..

3 years and 4 months.. my longest ever relationship so far... When i was putting away all our stuff, many memories flashed back in my mind.. all the sweets and the bitter..
It was the summer of 2004 when i first met him. He came from Malaysia to New Zealand for working experience..My dad acted as a agent to bring him and his friends from malaysia.. that was how we met.. after couple of months, we were together. It was like we were destined for each other at that time. But today, after 3 years and 4 months, it all ended.. How did we come so far if it wasn't love? How did we come so far if it wasn't destiny? How did we ended up like this?

What i value the most is the scrapbook i made for us.. put in a lot of effort in creating it and really really precious it a lot.. here are some of the pages..




















Looking back, we've really been through a lot..3 years plus worth of memories.. But now, it's time to put the pass behind me..to put everything into a box and seal it..to start over and hope the best for both of us..

Goodbye...

Friday, September 26, 2008

Nails..

Spent 2 hours doing my nails...





huuuh... bored.... what should i do next??

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Busy day

huuuuh... at last... over with all my tests.. yay! no more tests till my finals.. get to relax a bit now after 2 weeks torture with all the assignments and tests...Had 2 test today.. one at 1pm and one at 6 pm..Just got home and now waiting for dinner..feeling so hungry now.. used up all my energy and killed a lot brain cells.. Luckily both the tests werent that hard so did quite alright...

The other day I was watching the 'power of ten'... for you guys who never watched it before, it's a game show where the contestant have to guess the results of surveys done in the states..for example, how many percentage of people rather do this than that or thinks this is true than that..? There was one question asked on a survey done and I was really interested. The contestant had to guess how many percentage people would rather be ugly but smart than good looking but stupid... If all the catogeries are at their extremes which means beautiful is really beautiful, smart is really smart like genius, and ugly is really ugly...then i would choose to be beautiful but stupid. my brother chose to be ugly but smart and my sister wasn't really sure but at her first instance i think she said she chose to be ugly but smart too.. Well, I would really want to know what you guys think as well so I put a poll at the side bars of my page.. so everyone, please vote!!

p/s: im just doing this out of interest...

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Home alone

At home alone again.. My sis and bro went to karaoke with my sis work mates. She wanted to drag me along as well but I was too lazy and too broke to go.. Just bought Rihanna and Chris Brown concert tickets that was NZ150.. Really want to go so have to sacrificed my present entertainments for future ones and dint want to miss out again. The concert is on 28th October. Actually couldn't get any tickets cause the tickets were sold out in 20 minutes but because of the popularity of this concert, they decide to hold a second show.. Hope that it's as good as it is worth..

Time passes by so fast... Only 5 more weeks till my final exams. Feels like I just sat my 1st semester exams yesterday..Was planing to get a job this semester but havent took the initiative to type up a CV and send it in.Guess I'll just apply after my exams..Lately, I'm really scared of time. My 21st birthday's coming.. already 21.. I always wonder where did all my teenage years gone.. What have I accomplished? Nothing... Time lost is lost forever.. you can't turn back time and all you can do is just regret. I really dont want to live my life with regrets.. I fear the most that one day when I'm 40 or 50, I'll say 'so good if I've done this and that when I have the chance to but now it's too late'.Some people say that it's never too late.. But I think that in some things, too late means too late. you can never get back what you've lost to time..

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Missing out

Here I am sitting all alone at home missing out on the few events that I was dying to go to for the pass few weeks.. The Miss Chinese New Zealand pagent at manukau city and also DV8 dance party last night.. It was the biggest party each year with over a thousand people.. Din't really mind not going to the pagent but regret it so much that I missed the dance party..

Why? Why? Why? Why dint I took the initiative to get the tickets and just go? Well one reason was because no one wanted to accompany me there.. None of my friends were interested in going.. My sister had work early today so she too couldn't accompany me there.. Maybe I should have just go there myself. Although it will be a little sad, but at least its better than me regreting it so so much now..

I'm blaming it on my sister having to go to work today.. She tried to get off from work but her manager didn't approve.. If she dint have to work today we would have gone to the party and also the mid autumn carnival today.. One other event that i so so wanted to go...I love carnivals a lot a lot a lot.. Moses chan, fala chen and tavia yeung will also make an appearance there.. My friend texted me this morning asking me if im going. she said there's a lot of games and it's really fun.. Yes yes yes i want to go but I cant cause i dont have a transport there..So wanted to ask her if she can come and pick me but that would make me feel bad cause she's living in Manukau city and the carnival is held there. If I have a car right now I would drive there straight away..and i really wouldn't mind at all going alone.. OMG!! Why is this happening to me..? Please god.. is there some way i could just fly there?

Friday, September 19, 2008

Autograph session of hk celebs

Awesome but really tired day...
Surprisingly the autograph session today not only started on time, it started 5 minutes early...proven again that only malaysians are always late.. At 5 minutes before 4:30 they arrived in white mini vans like those ones used by celebs..and everyone started screaming their names.. They each made a short intro of themselve and said hello to everyone, signed some autographs and went off.. Everything happened so quickly.. they were there for less than 30 minutes.. but thank god i dint miss it cause it was really awesome!! First time getting so close to a celebrity..These are some pics i took...There were so many photographers in front blocking our view..so can't really get a decent pic..


waiting... had to do some study for my test...

still waiting...



Moses Chan, Fala Chen, Tavia Yeung













All of them looked better than they were on tele...well, except for that left one.. Can't really remember his name.. is it Onn tak chun?? Before this I dint really favour Moses Chan but he looked so much better in person..so charming.. starting to like him now... Fala chen and Tavia Yeung also looked so beautiful.. but one regret is that i dint queue up to get an autograph from them.. We were like the first people there but I had to study so did not get into the queue and also dint know that they will give us a signed picture of themselves.. thought we had to prepare our own stuff to be signed.. would have queued if I knew...Arrghh.... regrets...

Also took a video but it's too long to load.. Havent found a way to crop it on my sis's mac but will try.. will load it as soon as.. so wait for it!!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

A dark cloud following me...

Worst day of the week so far.. stayed up till 4 am last night watching fated to love you and moonlight resonance.. (best hong kong and taiwanese series I've watched this year).. was disturbed by a text msg at 8 in the morning and couldn't get back to sleep after that. Went to the library to study for my test tomorrow but was so sleepy that I din't get anything done. Suppose to go to my Infosys110 lab but got mistaken with the time.. went there at 2 but the class actually started at 1.. Dont even know how can i make mistakes like that since i attend this lab every week..
Came back to my apartment with no work done.. and really worried bout my test tom now..

It's actually onli 10%.. but im still worried..It's either I dont do it at all or if I decide to do it then I dont wanna get a low mark for it.. If it was the me last semester I think I'll probably just skip the test.. But I promised my mum that I will work hard this semester and wont disappoint her again with my C's.. Guess no sleep for me tonight then...

I really think that there's a dark cloud following me everywhere.. Like the ones you see in cartoons.. and it's continuously raining and striking thunder bolts on me.. There's an autograph session at 4:30 pm tomorrow in atrium with 3 of the actor and actress from moonlight resonance and I really really want to go.. but I have this stupid mid term test at 6 pm and have to leave around 5:30. don't know if I can make it to at least have a glimpse and take a picture of them (you know how they normally have delays and this and that).. If I make it, you'll see their pictures up on my blog tomorrow.. So please.... pray for me that they'll be on time and there's not too many people...

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Going down, down and down..

Gosh... been so busy these two days with my assignments and today's 25% term test...Serves me right for not doing it over the holidays.. Finally can take a breather to update my blog..

LATEST NEWS!!
It's going down everywhere!! The world sharemarkets are tumbling down after the fall of major investment firms on Wall street..Lehman Brothers the 4th largest investment bank filed for bankruptcy yesterday along with Merrill Lynch sold to the Bank of America causing the biggest financial crisis faced in many many years.. Everything everywhere is falling.. Stocks, bonds, funds and all the dollars,euros and yens... Well, at least now no one would be complaining on the petrol price going up...

You can't run and you can't hide... everyone's affected. All the worried faces everywhere..The question now would be how severely this will affect the global economy? would it cause lasting damage?

The NZX dropped over 90 points this morning however our Financial Minister Michael Cullen states that NZ's financial system is still sound.. well i hope so... but it is expected that there will be some impact on savings and also on our GDP growth.. So people... start saving!! Be prepared for what's coming to hit us... Better 'save' than sorry..

Really eager to go to my economics lecture tomorrow to see what my lecturer says.. that is if I go to bed now and can wake up on time to my 11 am lecture... Nitey Nite!!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Falun dafa

Yesterday, when i was walking down Queens st. I saw this... I felt it was really scary...



They are the people that practices Falun Dafa and is encouraging others to join them and protest against the prosecution that's going on in China. I also got a brochure....
Falun dafa is said to be an ancient Chinese cultivation system for improvement of mind, body and spirit. But i think its all bull..

In China, thousands of Falun gong practitioners were prosecuted by the government.. some of the practitioners set them selves on fire in order to show their strength to the government, even children were burned alive. They think that it is alright for them to die because they will go to heaven..ridiculous isn't it? then why dont everyone who practices falun dafa kill themselves and all of them will go to heaven. They also think that if they get sick all they have to do is to believe that the falun gong will cure them and it is unnecessary to see a doctor... ????

I think it's a type of cult that lure people into believing that they will become invincible if they practice the falun dafa.. This is all just CRAZY!!!

Everyone has their own beliefs and no one can say who's believe is right and whose is wrong. but i think a believe that teaches you to hurt and kill yourselve is so so wrong... Especially for those innocent babies and young children that is sacrificed because of their parents beliefs. So sad...

But it is also wrong for the China government to just prosecute everyone who practices it. Cause most of them are also victims that has their brain washed into believing Falun dafa..Although it would be really hard, the government should find a way to pull them out of all these ridiculous beliefs and not just kill all of them..

Friday, September 12, 2008

Daily horoscope and egg tarts

Woke up from my sleep 6 in the morning today with a lot in my mind... couldn't get back to sleep so was surfing on the net.. I read my daily horoscope and got a shock cause it was so so darn accurate.... scarily accurate...


Made some egg tarts in the morning for breakfast...

the nicest looking out of the first batch

nicest looking of all

arrhhhh....mmmm

guess bernard thinks its yummy..


wasted egg filling

The HOSEA musical was on tonight, a musical performed by a group of Auckland Overseas Christian Fellowhip students..Bernard, my sis and bro went but i decided to stay at home to watch gossip girl. They said I should have gone cause it was pretty good...But then today's episode of gossip girl was awesome..

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Nice day out!!

Arrggg... hate it when someone disturbs me from my sleep... received a text msg that woke me up at 10 am.. really frustrated at first but was pretty happy after cause my friend texted me to ask me out for lunch.. at last.... something to drag me out of my apartment..
Went to atrium and ordered a nasi lemak from the malaysian store... it was pretty good but too big portion for me.. wasted almost half of my meal..
While we were eating, there was a fashion show going on just right above us so i quickly took out my camera and got some pics...

taken from where we're eating

they were dancing while doing the show



lingerie show






After lunch we went for a drink...already had a honey milk tea when i was having lunch but went to ATT for a drink right after our lunch..lol... my stomach was so blotted and kept on going to the toilet..



lychee green tea...mmm....

Pinko's apartment after that..





scenary from her apartment

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Days of my mid semester holidays

Auckland's so fun!! Auckland's so happening!! You should come here!!
That was what i heard before coming here. Tomorrow will be the sixth straight days i'm in my apartment. Six days without sunlight... hmm... probably becoming a zombie...well at least zombies go out at night...What happen to all the fun? the happening?
Actually it's most probably just me.. i should just ask myself... what happen to the fun me? the happening me?
Have you ever have the feeling of just shutting everyone else out? Just dont wanna talk to anyone? Sometimes when i see someone that i know on the streets.. i just hope that they don't see me and i'll pretend not to see them so i wont have to talk to them.. am i becoming an anti-social person?
I used to be a really talkative person, who goes out almost every weekends and weeknights to minggle with friends and get to know more friends. arrrrggh...what happened??
Procrastination....I'll be thinking,'I'll talk to them the next time i see them' or 'I'll make new friends in my next class'.., one of my weakest points... or probably should just say laziness..I procrastinated in every single thing in my life... So in the end I procrastinated in making a change to my boring life in Auckland!!

P/s: sorry cause i procrastinated in writing a blog yesterday...

Monday, September 8, 2008

Yummy fruity sponge cake

Really delicious, simple and easy to make fruit sponge cake..








For those who wants to try it at home, here's the recipe:
Ingredients: 3 eggs (seperated)
1/2 cup of self raising flour
1/2 cup of sugar
a teaspoon of vanilla essence
a pinch of salt
Method:
1) Preheat oven to 200 degrees celcius. In a bowl, beat the egg whites till it is stiff
2) Beat in sugar until fully mixed or stiff
3) Add the vanilla essence into egg yolk and then beat it into the egg white mixture
4) Sift the flour and salt, then add slowly into the mixture while folding it gently
5) Pour into tin and bake for 15 minutes
6) To know if the cake is ready, poke it using a chopstick. It's ready if the chopstick comes out clean
7) Leave the cake to cool on rack and IT IS READY... That simple...

The recipe above is for a basic sponge cake and you can add other things on it to make it nicer. For my cake, I seperated the mixture into 2 and bake it seperately so I'll have 2 layers of cake. I then put some cream with peaches, pears and pineapples between those layers and on top of the cake. So now it's a fruity sponge cake!! It's easy to make and just took me around 1 hour! Try it, you'll love it!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Happy father's day!!

Happy happy happy father's day..!! For all you dads out there.. and for my beloved daddy..!! Thanks for all the years of loving and caring, and also the scolding and punishing : ) . It's all that you've done for me that made the person I am now. So thank you thank you thank you... and love you love you love you.....

By the way, today's New Zealand's fathers' day... and this will be the 2nd time I wish my dad happy fathers' day..cause he's in Malaysia and I'm in New zealand. Isn't it good to get to celebrate fathers' day twice.. the purpose for fathers' day anyways is for all us kids to appreciate and tell our fathers how much we love them. nothing wrong with doing it twice a year...

So for all you kids who havent wish your father, make sure you tell them how much you love them and thank them for all they've done for you.

Winston peters.. guilty ? or innocent?

For those of you who don't read or watch the news...
Our New Zealand Minister of foreign affairs, Winston peters, is currently under investigation by the police and has stepped down from his position. According to NZ law, any gifts made to the MPs of more than NZ$500 cannot be accepted or have to be declared. As you can guess, our minister did not declared a series of donations made to him, one of which was NZ$150,000 from Owen Glenn, the millionnair. Winston peters denies the knowledge of this donation but Owen Glenn states that Winston peters himself has requested for the money... so who's telling the truth?

Duh.... of course he knew about the money and a large portion probably went into his pocket.. and the Owen Glenn donation is not the only donation that was not declared. But who knows.. There'll probably be another cover up for him and he'll be let go easily..

You guys must be wandering, why politics all of the sudden.. since I'm living in NZ, have to at least know what's going on in this country. AND it's on the news every single day!! so its pretty hard not to notice it. But if it was the old me in Dunedin, I wouldn't even know about it until it's all over. Hmm...improvement....

P/s: sorry for being slack in updating my blog...

Thursday, September 4, 2008

First time to the gym!!

Yay!! Today's the sleepyhead's first time to the apartment gym. Did 30 minutes of cardio and was sweating like a pig and felt so dizzy. If continued exercizing i think i would have fainted. This is how fit my body is... and this is how far the gym is.....

Picture taken from inside my apartment

I think i probably need one of these:

I saw this in 2020 last night and felt it was really cool so i took a picture of it. It was found that a large proportion of obese people spend most of their day sitting at their desk in front of their computer either in offices or at home. So this company came up with this idea to help their staff with their obesity problems. A treadmill that is connected to their desk in their offices so staff would do their job while walking on the treadmill. Interesting what people can come up with. But if it was me I wouldn't want to work in this office. It would be tiring enough either just walking for 8 hours or working for 8 hours. Now walking while working for 8 hours? I'll be dead by the end of the day... But, this method really helped the staffs of this office to lose weight and keep fit.

Although I woke up 7 in the morning to go to the gym, I was so tired after that I slept till dinner time. Guess I've just wasted all my effort in the gym...

At this rate, I think i'm going to waste my whole holiday staying at home doing nothing except sleeping... as usual...

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

The Eumora beauty bar!!

'The Eumora beauty bar', miracle bar?? Well, you won't know till you try!!

This specific facial bar was highly recommended to me and now I'm recommending it to you. It is said to have multi-function for your skin, replacing all the facial products you need:
Cleansing, toning and moisturizing, the basic everyday need for your skin
plus the effect of removing spots, acne, wrinkles and even whitening!
That's not all, it also helps lifting and tightening your skin, making you look younger and freshened giving your skin the natural glow you've always wanted. Your skin will also stay oil-free for up to 12 hours.
No more spending too much money and time on your skin, buying different products for each specific purpose and applying layers and layers of products.
Eumora does it all!!

Sound too good to be true? That was the first thing that came into my mind too. But, I took the chance and bought the Eumora. In this 2 weeks of my holiday, I'll do a before and after experiment on Eumora and you guys will be able to witness the change that it does to my skin.

Problems that my skin facing now is bad acne on my forehead and some on my cheeks, black heads on my nose, dark eye circles and also uneven tone.
Yesterday was the first day I used Eumora, and the difference is that it really kept my skin oil free for up to 12 hours. Normally before going to bed, I'll wash my face with facial wash. It will feel very dry after washing but then will be very oily when i wake up. After using Eumora last night, I woke up with my face oil-free.

I'll keep an update on the progress of my skin in my blogs and any of you that have skin imperfections, make sure you're here to witness the effect of Eumora. If you want to try it yourself or have other questions on it, you can either, call, msg or email me(my details are on the side bar). I will soon set up a website for Eumora, explaining it in more detailed.

Other than Eumora coming into my life, the sleepyhead has made no progress with her year's resolution. Slept for almost 15 hours last night. Hmmm...when can the sleepyhead change..?

Monday, September 1, 2008

What's our purpose of life?

I'm pretty sure almost everyone know the movie 'constantine'? well, I watch it on TV just hours ago. Think this is my 3rd time watching it. It's a really good movie. This movie makes me think of our purpose of life.

I often ask myself..What is my purpose of life? Is it really true that there's heaven and hell? Is there a god watching over us? Is the whole meaning of this world created by god just to fight over souls with the devil? I do believe in god because that's how i was brought up but deep down i always have doubts.. questions...

Everyone have their own believes but who is there to tell us whose believe is right and whose is wrong. My mother always tell me that we should spread the words of gospel. We should believe so that when we die we will go to heaven and not suffer in hell but who is there to tell us for sure that there is heaven and hell? So does that means our purpose of life is to live our life happily, believing and preaching the gospel so that when we die we can go to heaven? So wouldnt it be better if i die when im a baby. cause then i'll go straight to heaven and save all the trying to get there. Since i dint die as a baby, can i live life just sleeping, eating and believing cause for me the things i enjoy most in life would probably be sleeping and i'll have to eat to continue living. If god sent us down to suffer for all the sins then would our purpose in life being in this world is to suffer? But then why do some people have a better life than others? Some people who are born in a privileged environment live their life not having to suffer at all. Why? Are they less sinful than others?

Someone once told me that it is better to live your life believing than not believing because there's nothing to lose if you just believe. There isn't a price to pay so you'll either win or not win but not lose. Therefore, I choose to believe. I dont have a choice of not having to live my life. I cant kill myself cause that will be painful and I'll go to hell if there's one. So, what's my purpose of life? I'm still figuring it out...

Anyone out there that knows and is sure of their purpose of life, please... tell me... So that i'll know how to find mine.